I’ve been working with the fabulous Annabel DuBoualy in her 22-day immersion called the Rose Moon Epiphany.
I really didn’t know what to expect from this journey except that my intuition called me to this program. It is based on her wisdom of the Rose Lineage, walking with masters and guides through the portal of the Winter Solstice as we rebirth our inner Sun King as well as walking through Venus Retrograde and initiating Venus in Capricorn Meta-Goddess cycle.
In one of the shamanic guided journeys, I received guidance from Mary Magdalene about my Wounded Healer Self.
There were two traumas hidden in my subconscious memory. The first was an ancient memory of watching Yeshua on the cross.
The second was an ancient memory of being stripped of High Priestess/ Sacred Sexual Feminine power in Babylon when I was a High Priestess of Inanna, a Hierodule. Dancing through Veils in the temple of Inanna. In that life, I was forced into a patriarchal marriage with a vert domestic role.
I remember that being the lifetime when I devolved into the wounded princess archetype and I was conditioned into marriage through a man for power, wealth, safety and protection.
Mary Magdalene took the cross out of my energy field and replaced it with a 5-petaled orange rose
I saw five thrones and five Queens, each with wisdom to share with me. Cleopatra, Mary Magdalene, Isis, Persephone and Medusa.
- Queen Cleopatra said It’s time to take your throne.
- Mary Magdalene said it’s time to heal the Holy Grail within your heart and womb and connect to Sirius.
- Isis said, it’s time to rebirth the temple of Isis within your soul.
- Persephone said, it’s time to be wild, free and in tantric union with yourself.
- Medusa said, it’s time to reclaim your Atlantean royal heritage.
Isis, Cleopatra and Mary Magdalene link to my spiritual heritage in Egypt, Sirius and Venus.
Persephone and Medusa link me to my spiritual heritage in Atlantis, Minoan Crete and post-Atlantean Greece.
From the shamanic work in the Rose Moon Epiphany, I did some additional research to gather information based on my dreams and intuitive nudges. I discovered the Magdalene Rose Temple created by Melissa, an Isis/ Magdalene Rose Priestess. These are her words from her website…
- The Magdalene frequency is rebirthing on our planet.
- Mary Magdalene is rebirthing her frequency as Queen of Magdalene
- She is upgrading her vibration into the new 5d royal codes
“The Queen of Magdalene codes are now ready to be received on our planet, these are high frequency codes of Stellar Light that radiate the new 5D Magdalene frequencies – Majesty, Sovereignty & Royalty.”
“In her rebirth, Mary Magdalene is now giving us the opportunity to rebirth into our Queen of Magdalene codes and Royal 5D Light. Now is the time for us to embody the Majestic Codes of Stellar Light from the Egyptian Royal Lines & the Higher Realms of Sirius & Pleiades.”
“To become a Queen of Magdalene, and to anchor this frequency onto our planet, we need to merge the Holy Grail lineage with the Egyptian Royal Codes.”
“A long time ago, the lineages of the Holy Grail and Egyptian Royal codes became separated when we descended into the dark ages of feminine disempowerment.”
~ From the Magdalene Rose Temple, Founder Melissa
Dream journal
New Year’s Eve night, I dreamt of a pack of wolves on the roof. They were strong and beautiful with wild, white coats. They looked directly at me and were so very unafraid. One of them jumped on one of my friends as I watched the wolf sit on my friend. But the wolf did not hurt her.
Then, I saw a woman in a red cape walk into the Shamanic cave with the wolves. When she took off her hood I saw my new dance teacher for 2022. Her name is Olga Meos. She is wild and magickal and doesn’t hold back. She said she would teach me to dance in my wildness again. And that we would dance together and work together in community in the future.
The next image in my dream, I was in a dormitory/hostel like setting with other young girls. I was preparing to leave with heavy suitcases. I looked through my travel paperwork and folders and had so many folders and paperwork to organize. Too many thoughts.
The night before I looked in the mirror in my bathroom and saw a web of cords that I kept cutting down.
The next day in waking life, I received a message from Olga Meos that I should join her upcoming class. I felt the wolves with me and walked over to my bookcase where I picked up “Women Who Run with the Wolves.”
Maturing from wounded priestess to the empowered Wild Queen
I have really been triggered as of late by friends and family who play the “domesticated woman” role who stand by patriarchal patterns of dependence, caretaking and having an identity that is based on a man (married to a man, children with a man, house/lifestyle provided for and paid by their man, always with their man or any man).
What do some of these women do? Stay at home. Bake cakes. They are always smiling, always happy, nothing is ever wrong with their happy family life. Fake. Definitely not authentic.
I don’t resonate with that Ken and Barbie storyline. It’s not my frequency. The princess is trapped, forever a princess. She will never feel “enough. She will never be liberated, free or wild. She will always get her identity from a man.
When you believe you are enough, which is when you are fulfilled and surrendered and liberated and don’t feel like you need anything outside of you, then everything is fine and easy.
When you feel whole, safe content and worthy
But when you feel tired or emotionally affected, and likely don’t feel enough, then you miss any kind of external stimulation and feel like you need external validation and love.
In surrendering the external stimulation and validation, you reconnect with yourself, replenishing yourself with the love and acceptance you deserve.
The Queen says, “Let’s focus inwards and reconnect to the Source of my power, and re-establish my feeling of ‘I am enough’. “
The wounded princess says,, “I need someone or something else to give me love and validation because I’m not willing or capable of giving that to myself.”
The Queen aligns to Source energy, where her true power comes from to replenish her cup.
Her personal vibration (Shakti, life-force) is her greatest resource. When we raise our vibration and align our life-force to the Divine, we join the Divine Flow and life can take on an effortless flow, relationships are harmonic and abundance streams with ease.
Your core mission is to wake up, connect to the source of who you really are – and raise your personal vibration. Ultimately, you will experience a new more enlightened world.
Once you are at peace with yourself, no matter the external condition, you look at your relationships through the lens if non-attachment. You no longer need “another” to to validate you and this feels very liberating. It allows you to co-create together in the spirit of interdependency, instead of saving each other from a place of co-dependency, unworthiness and addiction. It also means you can choose to be together freely and not out of need or obligation.
Then, there’s the new collective of Isis Priestesses and Wild Women belly dancers who I do resonate with. They are wild!
And this leads back inward to the split I have within myself that was created long ago in the patriarchy. Carl Jung calls this split in consciousness the Mother-Whore complex. We witness this in the biblical narrative of Lilith-Eve that has since devolved from the ancient roots of earlier epics, The Descent of Inanna and the Abduction of Persephone. Both stories that invite the feminine to descend into her dark mysterious nature, confront her fears, complexes and all to transform in the belly of the Goddess and be reborn with a new sense of individuation, freedom of the authentic self and wisdom that only be found in a journey to the Underworld.
I’ve been healing through this spilt in consciousness for years and the healing happens in spirals. In this round of Venus retrograde I am spiraling deeper than ever before.
I’m receiving powerful New Earth healing transmissions that allow me to receive the 10th dimensional Golden Christ Light.
The healings have been supporting my heart expansion, raising my consciousness, healing my physical self by becoming aware and releasing patterns, habits and thought forms of lower consciousness. One of those deeply held patterns is the wounded princess, shaming Shadow mother and victim/savior/villain drama triangle and betrayal matrix.
Then it all came together for me…
My soul had been patiently waiting for the Great Remembering and New 5D Earth to fully heal from the patriarchal dark ages where fragments of my soul have been stuck and so much rage and power along with it.
The Queens in my shamanic journey (Cleopatra, Mary Magdalene, Isis, Persephone and Medusa) were guiding me to shed the patriarchal woundings, identities and timelines to finally rebirth my true empowered, Divine self. Essentially, transform myself from the distorted patriarchal darkness and rise into the Age of Light.
The ancient Queens are guiding the priestesses and oracles, encouraging us to activate our royal codes to embody deeper levels of sovereignty and feminine power.
And all the rage and fragmentation I feel about sweet, innocent, unaware and un-initiated Eve/Barbie suddenly makes sense. She is also a part of me. She is my deepest fear of what happens to a woman once she becomes caged.
My deepest fear is that cage…
As Wild Woman I cannot fearlessly run with my pack unless I face this fear and re-integrate the fear into my consciousness so I can be whole.
And I want to fearlessly run with my pack of wolves and create and rebirth and love and teach and travel and be free and wild in my authentic self and unbridled sexual power. I have been searching for this elixir from my wild soul and this wild pack of kindred spirits.
I’ll leave you with the the wild, wise words of Clarissa Pinkola Estes from her beloved book, “Women Who Run With the Wolves”.
“For women, this searching and finding is based on the mysterious passion that women have for what is wild, what is innately themselves. We have been calling the object of this yearning Wild Woman…but even when women don’t know her by name, even when they do not know where she resides, they strain toward her: they love her with all their hearts. They long for her and that longing is both motivation and locomotion. It is this yearning that causes us to search for Wild Woman and find her. It is not as hard as one might first imagine, for Wild Woman is searching for us too. We are her young.”
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